I am so overwhelmed. For my entire life, I have always been the one that has to do everything for everyone and look where I am now. I am still taking care of everyone else but myself. I am working hard at the warehouse and the farm, trying to put a son through college, and now Dad won’t do what the doctors tell him. I have always had to do things for him. Even before my mom died, I was always the one that had to pick up all the slack in the family and I’ve never had anyone else to help out.
I just don’t know how much longer I can take it. Sure, Judy helps me out by taking Dad to his appointments and watching the kids. But boy is she in a bad mood when I get home from work! We never really have any time to spend together anymore and we are both on edge all the time. We are always arguing about something. I never imagined that this is where I would end up in life. I swore that I would move away from that damn farm and I’m still stuck picking up after those animals! If I had my choice, I would have left years ago. But, when Mom died I had to come running to the rescue, again.